breakfast

I had a DELIGHTFUL breakfast date this morning. We chatted and flirted. While I'm usually not a big fan of Baghdad Cafe - we had breakfast there - and we just had the BEST time. He's so muscular - and ultrafurry. He has a sparkle to his eyes - and laughs easily. (swoon) He's a graphic designer - who moved here from New York four years ago - and now does social promotion artwork for various groups in San Francisco. He was refreshing for so many reasons - he took my by his office and showed me all of his portfolio of work - then we took Miss Kate for a walk. Tremendous! I wrote a nice thank you note to him when I got home. THAT, ladies and gentlemen - is what a great date is supposed to be like.

why...

I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. He will put some things behind, will pass an invisible boundary; new, universal, and more liberal laws will begin to establish themselves around and within him; or the old laws be expanded, and interpreted in his favor in a more liberal sense, and he will live with the license of a higher order of beings. In proportion as he simplifies his life, the laws of the universe will appear less complex, and solitude will not be solitude, nor poverty poverty, nor weakness weakness. If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.

- From Conclusion, from Walden by Henry David Thoreau

I re-read this tonight and it made me tear up in it's simplicity. That somehow I got distracted from my dreams - and am just now finding that refocusing of my energy - just now finding that I'm living the life I imagined. Back in January 2006 I announced that I was moving to San Francisco after spending a long holiday with the likes of Fish and Robbie, Paully, and Morgan and Tommy. I announced to the universe I was moving here - even before I met Mr. Distraction.^tm

I only feel now like I've actually arrived - just a few days shy of my first year in San Francisco. I have put some things behind - AND know I've passed an invisible boundary - where my experience is expanding - and things are starting to become less complex rather than more - solitude is feeling like freedom - and things and money mean much less. I have gone from a place of weakness and emotional upheaval to a place where I understand that all that has made me stronger - and that weakness is NOT weakness. I have dreamed very high in the air - and now I'm at a place where foundation building can finally take place.

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I was looking into 2007 to find the next latitude - to find the next red clay path to walk down. I had some pretty firm ideas - and have to watch them realized as directionless and without forward momentum.

I had to face that - because now that I'm back on the path with a sense of brushing hot ash from my shoulders and making a step forward. These new ideas - these new dreams - are completely mine, don't require "someone else" to complete - and once I stare into them - they may never let me go.