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I made a new friend recently. He's spectacularly sexy - but also sensitive and smart. As I remarked a couple of weeks ago - now that the fog of the springtime is done - I seem to be finally meeting some really great people both here in San Francisco - and a few new friends out there on LJ and in other cities. This particular new friend is one of those guys that I'd love to spend a day just jabbering - and walking through a museum - and just talk over a bottle of wine until 1am. It's just great to connect with a kindred spirit.....

My friend David arrives in town from Australia on Friday. I am so excited! I've been cleaning house and thinking about our weekend. We're going up to Mendocino on Saturday morning - and spending three days up on the coast. We rented a cottage right on the ocean - with a hottub and a big kitchen. I've been looking through my recipes. I've been loading up my iPod. I am very excited about three days off the grid with my good friend. We've both had a hard year - and it'll be tremendous to reconnect one on one.

Tonight at 630pm - is my "tattoo fitting" at Idle Hand. Tonight he'll show me his redesign of the orca. and actually fit it to my chest. I can't believe I'm doing this. I'll (of course) post pictures. Then next Tuesday - with David (from above) with me - I'll add the orca to my body permanently. VERY cool stuff. It's my 40th birthday present to myself.

I finished the script from ANGELS IN AMERICA last night. I still cry when I read Prior's speech in heaven about wanting "More life" and realize how important thats been to me - to always remember that we should be wanting 'more life'. If you don't know Angels - GO RENT THE HBO PRODUCTION TODAY.

But still. Still bless me anyway. I want more life. I can't help myself. I do. I've lived through such terrible times and there are people who live through much worse. But you see them living anyway. When they're more spirit than body, more sores than skin, when they're burned and in agony, when flies lay eggs in the corners of the eyes of their children - they live. Death usually has to take life away. I don't know if that's just the animal. I don't know if it's not braver to die, but I recognize the habit; the addiction to being alive. So we live past hope. If I can find hope anywhere, that's it, that's the best I can do. It's so much not enough. It's so inadequate. But still bless me anyway. I want more life. And if he comes back, take him to court. He walked out on us, he oughta pay.

next on my reading list: The Complete Stories of Truman Capote

The weather in San Francisco matches me perfectly - I have never enjoyed living somewhere all year long as much as I do San Francisco. This morning's foggy dogwalk was just REALLY enjoyable.

I like Fergie. there. I said it.

wrascalbc posted a delightful tour of his home town today. click here. He is adorable, witty and has fun with his camera.

I stayed up late last night watching Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind which resonates MUCH harder with me after my spring. How many of us could wish to have bad relationships or relationship attempts "erased" from our minds? I dreamt about it all night long - about what a cop out that seems to be like. Albeit the movie romanticizes it a little with its storyline; it still feels like a cop out. I KNOW that I'm a stronger person for having gone through the last year emotionally.

quiet is not overrrated.

grabbing my KonaInATravelCup and heading to the office........