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[thoreau]

San Francisco from Muir Beach - Flickr Photo Cache

the wind has been making my windows clatter. its been a very windy/stormy day or so here - - with tree branches and unbattened down trash can contents strewn on the streets. I setup a new desk area in the bay window in my bedroom. using a coffee table and a pillow - I'll need to go shopping for a short ottoman or simple box chair for the location. its comfortable and puts me in great light during the day. Kateydog is snoring behind me on the bed. She had a rumblytummy this morning - so we did several walkies to let her sort that out, the poor thing. but she seems all better now.

I had a reckless night's sleep - having all sorts of dreams I can't recall - several resulting in my slingshotting awake suddenly. I hate those kinds of dreams. So i got up gently this morning, brewed some kona and took a long bath.

Had breakfast with my pal Jeffery this morning - we talked about all sorts of things - he's selling one of his houses and plotting redesigns at the house where he lives, and we're both anxious for Duboce Park to reopen on March 8th.

Tom is coming over this afternoon - I'm eager to see him again. He's such a soft, gentle person. He's going to bring over a board game - I'm going to make us dinner. He really is something special.

Since my return from New Orleans I've felt disconnected and not "in tune" here. I'm not sure what that is about. I talked about it with my Mom and she put it up to time zone changes. The change between here and New Orleans is hardly intense (2 hours). I came back to probably my most busy week ever professionally with two concerts to produce, changing printers, ordering new stocks, the continuing refreshing-ing^tm of the logo for KOIT, the Classical Star Search coming up for KDFC, etc. I loved spending yesterday cleaning around the house and having a quiet dinner at the Alamo.

but I still feel disconnected. I wish there was a way to feel settled. You'd think after a year and a half in this city I'd feel settled.

there is always tomorrow......

Comments

[brunorepublic.livejournal.com]

You'd think after a year and a half in this city I'd feel settled.

I've lived in Toronto for 37 years and I still don't feel settled.

[low-fat-muffin.livejournal.com]

i don't think the feeling of unsettledness has anything to do with our locations. I think I'm finally finding a nice routine/rhythum and such here. I had just been noticeablly distracted and my feathers have been ruffled since I got back from vacation. I'm not sure what is the root cause.

good to know I have a good will ambassador in the Bruno Republic.

[low-fat-muffin.livejournal.com]

this is the new space - temporarily using the ottoman from the couch in the living room:

[kbearblog.livejournal.com]

I sometimes think that the unsettled feeling comes from the change in seasons, at least for me here in the snow belt. And that is a beautiful space, a great spot to be creative.

[mrdreamjeans.livejournal.com]

There is a certain laidback, easy, comfortable feeling to New Orleans that provides a certain serenity of mind. You came back to, as you've indicated, a hectic professional environment. Sometimes, it's plain hard to let go of a vacation ....

Hope you start to feel connected. You've accomplished so much in the past 18 months professionally and spiritually ... and you have not lost your zest for learning.

I'd like it if we interacted more that we have been on LJ.

HUGS!

[bukephalus.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. I frequently feel unsettled, and I'm starting to think it's about living alone, which I'm not accustomed to. Even just having a housemate rattling around in another room makes me feel a little less alone.

But of course there can be many causes, and all your obligations at work certainly could be contributing to an undercurrent of stress.

Hugs!

[bukephalus.livejournal.com]

Love it! And I love that your computer shows this very page... Like a mirror within a mirror within a mirror...

[bearfuz.livejournal.com]

That's an amazing photo, photoshopped or not. It looks as if SF's streets are paved with gold. Or something. :-)

reckless night's sleep

Giggle! I'm trying to imagine exactly what that means... ;-)

[low-fat-muffin.livejournal.com]

a reckless night's sleep in this case? the wind makes the old 1800s windows in my flat tap against the window sills and I'm a light light LIGHT sleeper. Miss Kate was being an INCREDIBLE bed hog all night. (partly because she likes snuggling up really close to me) and finally - I just got wierd vibes. a) because Tom (the guy from the dating post) didn't really make a big effort to see me when I returned - it took a week - so I sorta knew something was up. when I receive flowers and chocolate that say "lets be boyfriends...." I usually try to reply in person - pretty quickly. so I was a tad embarassed about all that. I knew yesterday's conversation was coming honestly. (i may look silly - but I'm NOT stupid) so - in cases such as that my mind goes into overdrive and I toss and turn. but last night - I hit the bed about 10pm and hit remsleep within seconds and slept hard till the alarm went off at 515am.